I sort of disappeare for a long time again.I've been kinda busy doing stuff again. Coming up on finals week soon. Had a weekend with my fiance. Life is going okay.I've actually been thinking.. and I think I'm going to ch…

I haven't updated in a few days. Sorry guys. I've been busy.I got my ethics test done and in on time. That was a good thing.It turns out that I got a 94.5% on that last Spanish test. So I think I'm okay on that.I hung ou…

HECK YESSSSSSS!!!!!There was a big sale at JC Penney today and my fiance and I went to get some clothes for us and Rosie.. I tried on some shirts... AND LARGES WERE TOO BIG!!!!! YESSSSS!!!!I'm a medium. Hell. Yes. We got…

Why does my life suck?I mean, honestly, someone give me a reason?I think I'm just going to give up. I'm always fat. I can never keep up with my school work. I can't ever get a break from my daughter. I always look like h…

I made my other Xanga.... www.xanga.com/buckthinspoCheck it out.I'm still adding pics to it. My fiance got home and interrupted me.So far I have had a 100 calorie yogurt for breakfast.Lunch I plan on having a sandwich ag…

Okay the origin of these next pics is slightly questionable... Some 17 yr old posted them on an adult dating service... Oh well though right? It's not like we're usin em in a bad way. lol. Just no one better beat off t…

I GET A SHOWER!!!!YAYNESS!!!!! I'm excited...And my fiance is awake and being nice to me!!!YAY!!!!Turned out to be a happy day after all!!!!I have had a few bites while I was cooking.... had to make sure it tasted good b…

I'm really unhappy today. Everything is just going wrong.I'm so tired of everyone. I'm just irritated.I want to go hide in my bedroom and be away from everyone.I'm prolly not gonna get my year book. My mom is bitching ab…

Just binged. I had 2 slices of pizza, 2 little crunch bars, 1 hersheys bar, 1 fun size snickers, and a pack of mrs. freshleys peanut butter waifers...That was like 1,000 calories... embarrassing to write....AND I AM SO F…

I really hate that number.I'm fasting for a few days. I just really hate seeing that number. For some reason my body is stuck there. I really don't know why.I mentionede before that I joined that competition on EDNOSF...…

Okay.. so I haven't had that great of a day.. lol.It's been fun though. I cleaned part of the bathroom and did some laundry. I played with Rosie and we danced. lol. Then we took a shower. That was sorta difficult. She's…

I haven't been updating much lately..Kid figured out how to disconnect the internet...so annoying...My fiance and I went to Seattle today...We had fun. It was a good day.I tried on a really pretty blue dress... I didn't…

Okay so I guess today wasn't too horrible.Before going to dinner I had 2 little oranges and a pack of swiss rolls. I'd call that like 200 calories or so.Then at dinner.. bleh.. My friends always make me feel weird cause…

And the grand total for the day is.....420 calories plus a couple of those tiny oranges that I shared with my daughter! I'd call it right around 500 exactly. I think those little things are like 45 cals a peice or someth…

Okay so I just got this weird message from a complete stranger...It made me wonder, what would I look like if I WAS thin?What if I look worse?What would I do with myself all day if I didn't what I looked like and what I…

so far now I have had a total of 220 cals. I ate a little dinner thing from lean cuisine or soemthing of that likeness.I'm gonna be leaving for class at about 4:30 or 4:45... probably the latter.I'm having trouble regist…

Just ate a ton... not good. I don't even want to post it.lol.And Barack won the election.... funny day. Saw that one coming...No offense to anyone, but it's sorta funny to see everyone crying on TV. I asked my fiance if…

Okay so I've already screwed up today and it's only 1 pm.Intake so far: Caramel apple: 150 cal Cottage cheese: 35 cal Mini Crunch bar: 50 cal? Pumpkin chocolate chip cookie: 200 cal? 2 crackers and a couple chips: 50 ca…

Enjoy ladies!I hope you all have a good night!

Okay so which do you want first? Inevitably everyone asks for the bad first....So here we go..I've gotta drop my business class.The good news?I'm retaking it next quarter and I've already got all the answers. :DSo I'll g…

Okay so total I have had one caramel apple, salad, swiss rolls, and 2 crackers.I'd call that around 350.I'm leaving for class in 3 hours so I don't think I'll be eating much more. I'll have a little pot roast when I get…

I'm looking to try something new...Let me know about any pills you've taken, whether they've worked or not.Give me a full review if possible. I tried to just check around on the internet and just got confused. Most sites…

So I have now had:Toast: 90 cals Cracker: 15 cals Crystal Light: 5 cals Diet orange soda: 0 calsFor lunch I am planning:Yogurt: 100 cals Apple and caramel: 150 calsDo you think that's too much? 360 cals plus dinner? Kind…

Women from my fiance's home country..Aren't they beautiful? No wonder he says I'm just "okay"... First two are Miss Honduras not sure what year.... I think 08.

Okay so I just woke up a few minutes ago. I was up late not being able to go to sleep and then my fiance's snoring woke up up alot... and now he just finally woke me up for the day completely by coming in to get a bottle…

So I have now taken both my Hydroxycut pills for the day. I have eaten two 45 cal peices of toast, and one 100 cal yogurt.I'm making spaghetti tonight.. so I'll eat that later.That should be about it for the day!Yayness.…

I feel SOOO super duper fat.I don't know what else to say.My fiance kinda made me feel bad about it again today..He didn't mean to.. but I just always feel like I'm not good enough.I know that he likes REALLY skinny girl…